aft the previous post.

everything changed.

wat i wanted is not ppl ard me tat care so much for me wanted.

how shall i put it?

"out of no choice"?

or i shld say i shld face it bravely.

instead of avoiding.

i submitted my so call plan.

of coz boss is shocked how come i changed my mind within 2days.

coz i really felt bad to disappoint ppl tat care n trained me so hard.

thinking back now..

lucky to have them to build up my courage to face it.

thank you laichoon.

thank you louise.

i really LOVE you 2!!

<3

since tat day onwards.

i had told myself to change.

but not so obviously.

in case ppl think otherwise.

i dont noe hows my performance since den.

but till 2days ago.

things like back to square 1.

we 3 make her angry upset n disappointed.

again n again.

see how bad are we treating such a great wonderful 1st asst.

think we really deserve feeling guilty, having sleepless night n herman taking the wrong train home.

when i saw her at work just now.

i noe n i can feel she is not the one i first knew.

we 3 really dont noe how n when it will be solved...

so suddenly..

i felt so lost..

now i got almost the same feeling when i got my o lvl results yrs back..

worked so hard since sec 1 all the way to sec 4.

when got o lvl results.

failed eng.

got to retake..

and retake..

AND retake...

alr worked so hard for 3yrs..

but still wat i am?

i gave myself 3yrs?

but now..

ppl people keep on telling me give myself 6mths..

6mths..

another 6mths..

how many more 6mths do i need to spend?

sorry boss n ahyi..

the 2 of u talked to me like 100sentences..

i dont even replied 10ans..

coz im really lost..

but i did think back wat u all talked to me.

i wana start afresh..

control my temper..

change my way of approaching..

deal with situation more maturely..

tats wats u all want right?

i noe myself its difficult for me..

but i will change for the sake of myself n i believe the new good characteristics will benefit me in the future.

not only at work..

but in life.

(:

i knew it long ago.

but im just stubborn..

i dont wat submit watever tdi or development plan anymore!

i want time to prove myself everything..

not saying i dont want submit means im slacking..

i just want it to be 顺其自然..

yupp (:

pakcikk!!

thanks you too!!

i really dont noe y..

u seems like noe when im not right..

n call me..

although for some other reasons..

but i'll take the chance to borrow ur listening ears..

tats y since long ago i always find u're my guardian angel!!

=P

frm ahyi talked to me..

to boss seat down tgt with me writing my development plan.

den  borrowed pakcikk's listening ears..

till his long sms..

think i had cried a river le ba..

but at least finally i noe wat i wanna do.

worth it ba.

jiayou ba!

(:

2011~

happy new yr!

(:

a new yr..

with a new boss..

in a new patch..

how our life will be?

:(